Be filled with that light and be transformed. This is also a centering-a centering in the spinal column. If you are body-oriented, this technique will help you. If you are not body-oriented, it is very difficult; it will be very difficult to visualize from the inside. Then to look at your body from the inside will be difficult.
This sutra will be more helpful for women than for men. They are more body -oriented. They live more in the body; they feel more. They can visualize the body more. Women are more body-oriented than men, but for anyone who can feel the body, who feels the body, who can visualize, who can close his eyes and feel his body from within, this technique will be very helpful for him.
Then visualize your spinal column, and in the middle the silver cord running through it. First it may look like imagination, but by and by you will feel that imagination has disappeared and your mind has become focused on that spinal column. And then you will see your own spine. The moment you see the inner core, suddenly you will feel an explosion of the light within you.
Sometimes this can also happen without any effort. It happens sometimes. Again, in a deep sex act it sometimes happens. Tantra knows: in a deep sex act your whole energy becomes concentrated near the spine. Really, in a deep sex act the spine begins to discharge electricity. And sometimes, even, if you touch the spine you will get a shock. If the intercourse is very deep and very loving and long – really, if the two lovers are just in a deep embrace silent, non – moving, just being filled with each other, just remaining in a deep embrace – it happens. It has happened many times that a dark room will suddenly become filled with light, and both bodies will be surrounded with a blue aura.
Many, many such cases have happened. Even in some of your experience it may have happened, but you may not have noticed that in a dark room, in deep love, suddenly you feel a light around both of your bodies, and that light spreads and fills the whole room. Many times it has happened that suddenly things drop from the table in the room without any visible cause. And now psychologists say that in a deep sex act, electricity is discharged. That electricity can have many effects and impacts. Things may suddenly drop, move or be broken, and even photographs have been taken in which light is visible. But that light is always concentrated around the spinal column.
So sometimes, in a deep sex act also – and tantra knows this well and has worked on it – you many become aware, if you can look within to the thread running in the middle of the spinal column. And tantra has used the sex act for this realization, but then the sex act has to be totally different, the quality has to be different. It is not something to be gotten over with; it is not something to be done for a release; it is not something to be finished hurriedly; it is not a bodily act then. Then it is a deep spiritual communion. Really, through two bodies it is a deep meeting of two innernesses, of two subjectivities, penetrating each other.
So I will suggest to you to try this technique when in a deep sex act – it will be easier. Just forget about sex. When in a deep embrace, remain inside. Forget the other person also, just go inside and visualize your spinal column. It will be easier, because then more energy is flowing near the spinal column, and the thread is more visible because you are silent, because your body is at rest. Love is the deepest relaxation, but we have made love also a great tension. We have made it an anxiety, a burden.
We are beings of pleasure. Yet, we live a sex-and pleasure- negative culture. Most of us are very fragmented and wounded around sexuality. We often have a very limited experience which leaves us feeling deeply unsatisfied. We know that there has to be more to sex and we want more.
In the warmth of love, filled, relaxed, close your eyes. But men ordinarily do not close their eyes.
Ordinarily, women do close their eyes. That is why I said that women are more body- oriented while men are not. In a deep embrace in the act of sex, women will close their eyes. Really, they cannot love with open eyes. With closed eyes, they feel the body more from within.
Close your eyes and feel your body. Relax. Concentrate on the spinal column. And this sutra says very simply, in such be transformed. And you will be transformed through it.
If you move into sex with awareness, it can turn into tantra. If you move into tantra with unawareness, it can fall and become ordinary sex.
Vigyan Bhairav Tantra – Vol-1